Now she has died and had a beautiful death (seems weird to say) she was filled with peace, love and God her last days and almost glowed like she was when she was pregnant with our sons. I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD FIND A PERSON THAT I COULD LOVE LIKE I NEVER FELT BEFORE. I FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM BEFORE WE EVEN KISSED OR HELD HANDS. WELL IM HAPPY TO SAY IT; S BEEN ALMOST 7YEARS AND WERE STILL TOGATHER.

Flash forward a month or so and now I've met this wonderful women, never intended for this to happen and I feel happier than I have been in quite some time, having these open, honest conversations, but my fear is that I haven't grieved enough.

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She had been very sick for the last three years of her life.

We have two wonderful sons and although we stuck It out, our marriage had some issues, she had borderline personality disorder and would often be very angry with me and just flat out mean.

In 1988 she earned a spot as a swimmer at the Olympic Trials. She lives in Texas with her sons Connor and Brannon.

For more information about Jennifer and her memoir, I lost my wife two months ago and am trying to sort through my feelings.

Third, I needed to fully embrace the feeling of being attracted to another person. But in that same moment, I stumbled upon a profile of an attractive man whose profile made me smile.

I decided to trust that my body was telling me ‘it’s OK! When I was so wrapped up in the sadness of losing Mark, I had no space to let someone in. He and I met a month later and spent seven hours together on our first date.That was just the start—we wound up dating for eighteen months.And after I’d fallen in love and spent countless hours entwined in the connection with him, I decided to stop seeing him.And finally I realized that I could be with a man and, furthermore, consider having a future with someone other than Mark.So, while my first attempt at a relationship after my husband did not end up as I had wanted, it was an experience that greatly furthered my healing and growth.But the best part of senior dating is precisely the fact that it connects you to those who understand what you are going through, so you can help each other out.